I’ve realised that in life I never seem to enjoy or be satisfied by anything that I feel I MUST do, even if it appears essential. Events and situations can be subject to incredible and rapid change, so surely my potential expectations should be too. I think that the feeling of need or desperation to do something is often created by a fear of not being good enough, so I believe that even if something I am doing is necessary, I’m still doing it because I want to – at least in some way, because of where it will lead me in the future. I find thinking like this both empowering and productive!
If what I really want to achieve in the long term means that, in my current emotional state, I should spend an hr sitting on my ass watching T.V to collect my thoughts or take a break, then sit on my ass I shall.
I think the real insight here, comes from understanding the difference between what is helpful to us, and what is actually just an excuse we make to self sabotage. I’ve never felt more focussed, determined or capable than when I’m being kind and really listening to myself.
Thanks or reading.